I came back to manchester this monday, still feeling lazy to unpack all my stuff...-- Sherry said she saw maturity in me, both physically and mentally(i wish she could just mention mentally).....I am not sure if i grown mature, but surely if someone said so, nobody will feel unhappy, we are not micheal jackson whom created Neverland and refuses to grow up. To stay at the same stage is a torture, i want to have something new and the only way to have fresh things and memories is to look to the future. An anynomous used to say i am a very cold blooded creature. She said she sees unconcern in my eyes. But we all know being too concerned of sth will eventually lead to disappointement. I am not an all time hypocrite, and being hypocrite is not so difficult but neither it is easy. However, human being is an in born 50% hypocrite, we hide, we tease, we fight and so we survive. I have been through some hard time and the consequences mke me who i am. I am also a human, an ugly creature, like everybody and like nobody.