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Sunday, February 22, 2009
Sometimes i ask myself, what for to struggle so hard for everything? what for to live for miserably? what for to put on a smiley curl on face if i dont even feel like doing so? what for i study something i deny it for thousands times and will never truly immerse into it and finally end up seeking for different path? I dont get an answr, or perhaps, it is already in my heart but i never want to accept it, keep escaping from the truth is a part of my life.
I am a Buddhist, and i believe so strong about the theory of reincarnation, but if, i have this choice to reincarnate, i will say, i dont want to be anything....i shake my head, look up to the sky, i tell the Buddha who watch over me, please turn me into ashes, and be with You.