moody
Monday, July 02, 2007
I am moody today, because the exam is around the corner, and i dont really have confidence on it. Tomorrow starts i have to hard work to practise. Now that i have become easily nervous and under confident, i think i am such a weak person.
These days i hate to go out, except someone drive me to the destination. I also has provoked sher-rin, cos i refused to pick her up after school this evening.My sister is always a self-centred person, never considers her action for another second, i have been fecthing her and my youngest sister last saturday, 3 times a day, she wanted to go tuition, then after her tuition she immediately went to her friend's birthday party, and my dad needed to picked her up after having dinner with us. She never found out herself is giving us alot of inconvenience, my parents are always busy, af course to fetch her for some times are still capable, but if like every week she also have to go out and flirt around, i doubt we have the time. then, just a while, she asked me to fetch her after school, actually she has a school bus, i dun get why she still wanted to ask me for a drive, my exam is so near that i have started to become so emote.....whatever, i dont care, perhaps if she called my dad to fetch her, he would also call me to substitute him at last, whatever....=_=
I need to be selfish....i dont want to be her driver so often to make her thinks that i am so free and happy to pick her up every day. I know she has completely different character from me, it doesnt mean i have to endure her actions of being self-centred, of thinking the earth should spin and rotate because of her. maybe i am wrong to reject her, but if i keep on say yes to her, then i have to drive out every day, i feel sick to step out from my house before my exams.
Labels: sick
Sherli ♥