grimness
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Something stuck into my heart...i feel so pain inside but i am useless to do things for curing it.At last i am able to wake up early and pay EE Chien's mom a visit. Under my expectation, She burst into tears....i dunno what to say, i dunno what should i react, because i am sad enough to even say a word. I went there alone, without Grace, without my sister...is all alone....Ee cheien's mom is also alone...i can see that she still in great grief, she looks older and her voice becomes abit gruffly, i know she is resentful and who not?? We all suffer from her death....but her mom suffers the most, with a mother's heart. She recalled to me the time while Ee chien still stayed still, she looked at me, and keep on trying to remind me about Ee chien....and also remind herself. Is been a year since her leaving, but i still feel that she has not yet died, perhaps it is my illusion. Sadly i found myself could not let go....at least her death has burnt into my heart....it has a bandage on it, and will not recover forever....
Sherli ♥