crash
Thursday, July 13, 2006
I gonna admit that i am really an accident prone, i can never stop getting crash with people. Why can't i change? Why cant i be more pretentious? Why can't i just act normally as others....i dun understand myself anymore....i told pixie that i am terrible, but pixie said i am not, i am just straightforward. Pixie i love you, thanks ya. I know i am not mature enough,i know myself sometimes dun really care of others and it actually hurts, i know i am mean.....Faye said i am kind in my own way...i dunno, the only think i know is that i can never act like a normal person. I have easy outfit but i am complex inside. i am actually worried about myself sometimes.
Perhaps when i grow elder, i will learn to conceal my true characteristic....now i understand why boss always said i am not special but weird....>_<.....Nicole asked me to calm down and dun bother her, or else i will get mad easily...nicole u understand me well too...>.<. Pixie said i got no wrong, i am just telling the truth but...i still feel sorry...i hate ppl crying bcos of me...seriously i hate, the more i hate the ppl who cried for the sake of me, the more i hate myself. Ok, i can feel myself drowning inside my own world and fight between the angel and evil.
Hui ting and Kuan ling said i have to act the way i am, i no need to change...i wonder....haiz....give me PEACE!!!!or kill me PLEASE!!!!