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Sunday, May 14, 2006
Is been a long time i had not done posting for my blog. Things happened alot but it doesn't seem to affect me, perhaps i am numb. Human will learn from the environment, it sounds cruel but it is the fact.
I am wondering all the time whether my decision to do law is correct, somehow i know there is no turning back. Life is mean to me, i am mean to myself. I am no longer feel suffocated for my relationship, i know i am one more step nearer to become an adult. i look at the mirror, my face doesn't change, it remains a me, but my thoughts turn out quite different, and i feel a bit ridiculous of that.
Suddenly i am already a 20 year old girl, i am suspecting whether my mental comes the same as my physical conditions. Today may be a day to celebrate but i dun intend to do so, i dun think i have the obligation to celebrate, it is somehow sounds stupid for me to have this day happy.
Exam is here coming near to me, my preparation is still not enough, i am nervous but can't help to study, my thought begins to be messy....all kind of emotionals pour out from my heart, it annoyed me. Susu, gambate ya.