Ther might be sometimes where u just wanna rip your hair out, or ther might be sometimes u just wanna sit down n phone up everyone to hear u cry wetly till ur eye dry. I have done that recently, reason is secret. I get nothing good to tell u all, all u will response are,"how childish u r...", "come on, dun think too much, Rest n Peace...", or even "...i am a good listener...." this kindly of so called helpless responses.

I am so sorry that i can't be sweet to everyone, i can't work hard like scholars, i can't still smile at u when u slapped me, i can't stop cursing u even if u r my XXXX....i confess, i am not a good person, not a real person, not someone that u can share sth with if u r in deep of sth else, not someone that u can get along with, not someone that u will admire, not someone that u will choose to be with......i am nothing good to u n myself. I am not trying to bury my own good characteristic, it just that i wan u to believe that i am so bad until u won blame me when oneday i treat u bad.

I hate when u know that i am not that kind of person n yet u still compel me to become that kind. What else kind?? heh??? kind? pretty? gorgeous?? like cinderalla? like snow white? That are all SUCKS!!!! I can't be as perfect as what u want, neither u r. Even God is not perfect enough, that is why some ppl will say "Damn GOD!" issit?

Now i tell what u dun know about me....i am actually tried all my best to be kind !!!KIND!!! Dun bother to read if u can't continue....i have tried all my initiative to study!!! I have tried all i can to make LOTS of FRIENDS!!!! I have tried all my energy to create topics to make u all funny!!!! I have used up all my happiness to gain ur happiness, i have sacrified everything to make u proud, i sacrified my ambitious, i sacrified my life...i sacrified my future....i left nothing...i left nothing, do u ever know? do u ever know how misery i am deep inside?? do u know how i feel like crying all the time? do u know how i try all mean to protect our frenships?? do u know how hard i try to go on with the subject i dun like?? Do u know how much i wan to kill myself....i deserve to die, yet i still alife, u deserve to alive, but u have become ashes. Above all, I bet, U NEVER KNOW! U NEVER KNOW!

The only thing u know is that why am i so cool to u, why am i so bad, why i always curve someone, why i always so quiet, why i never smile, why i ...why i .... UNCOUNTABLE WHYS!!!!!!

I am restless.... i really can't make these work, i am a BITCH, I am a BASTARD, i am An EVIL.

Ya, actually i dun understand English, not even a word of it! I am a Pure Chinese....Satisfied????? Bloody Idiot a me.