To My Dear Friend In Australia.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Dear Pei Voon,
How are you?(Accroding to the informal letter style.>_<)This diary is for you, you are the second one who know my privatise blog. You should be glad.hehe.
How is your life in Australia? I know it won be any big changes for you, since you are always that kind that i know. Perhaps you change but i dun realise, cos MSN could not let us easily spy our emotions; perhaps you are still remain but i doubted, cos people change all the time in their life, maybe when u read this, you will say, haiya, where got change? No one will say themselves changes cos they never a friend of themselves. Only your friend can see your changes....eh, i go to far, stop, i should bring in my main topic.
You told me your mid term exam has just over, and you are so anxious about your result, just as when you were in your a level, just as when you were having your important exam. I know that kind of feeling, actually everyone who has been schooling knew it well. But, i think except of this, you also caught yourself in others traps, such as burden from your family? Perhaps you scare you will fail and this will disappoint your parents, since they spent so much money and send you oversea, of course they expect you to have good result. Before i continue, would you ask yourself, whether you have done all your preparation before the mid-year exam, have you ever tried all your initiative to do the revision, i think you did, and how about yourself? Don worry, you know yourself well, you must have tried all your best during the examination. That is why you will scare after exam, cos u have done a lot for the exams, right? If you said no, i dun believe, everyone has their own extent of doing revision, some of them may just take a few weeks, or even few hours, this depends on outr own talent and ability, so i know you must have tried to prepare well. If you have been struggling for your exam, whatever the result might be, you should be glad to except, since this is your effort and you have done your best, your family won blame you if you have done all you can. Moreover, this is just the first time of your exam in Australia, so take it as an experience and try to indicate your own shortage and correct it. Then, before the coming of your final, you can do more well.
Pei Voon, have you ever know that i admire you so much? Since you are so lucky, you can choose what you like to study, your family support you behind whatever you want to be in future. Me? did i have a chance to choose? If i chose what i really wanted, my life in my family will be suffered, cursing and disappointing, scolding and unkind...you said before that i can actually choose what i want, only that i am not insistent enough. You are wrong, i am wrong too. You wrong because you are not one part of my family, you dunno the misery, i wrong because i dun wanna being insistent of my own life. i cannot stand of cursing and scolding everday, i have had enough of that in my younger life, i wanna be strong, i wanna cross upon all of them, i wanna be free from them in future....
Now, do you think you are lucky compare to me? Will you feel guilty if you really think you dun pay much effort for this exam? If yes, think about me, think about others who dun have the luck to study overseas, and turn back to yourself, you are one who being blessed by the God, so for the next exam, study hard and try your best. If no, then noworry, you have tried your best, what else you still can do if you fail, the problem is you have tried you best?, you shouldnt feel scare or under confidence, put yourself relax, life after exam in others countries deserve to have more fun then in Malaysia. So, go to enjoy yourself, make yourself happy.
Remember, if you have tried your best to do something, whatever the return is, you must be glad and accept it, and make that as your courage to your next time. You are far apart, so if anything happened to you, feel free to get your friends and tell them about your problem, dun confine your heart. You are not alone. Lonely will only come to you when you want it...like me. My heart is sick, but you are not. So, dun trouble your heart. Love yourself, love your heart.
I think i am a bit out of topic, come back come back. Finally, be happy and dun worry, you will pass your exam. I will bless for you. Take care, and stay well.
Your sincerely,
sally loo
(LOO SHER LI)
p/s, damn!! i am so into writing informal letter nowaday! haha! the song name "dear friend", i will send to you next time.
Sherli ♥