Rage my dream
Friday, March 31, 2006
I am so down recently, can't even smile fakely.....weird....actually i dunno what happen to me, just suddenly turned gloomy, so emotional. I like to stay at home recently, like to have day dream with my textbooks, like to wandering around at home, like to stare no direction......i am weird nowaday.
I am confused about my own character, i try to change but it is somehow hard, my attitide will bring me to trouble in future, i am very anxious about this. I am caught in the middle.....
I gonna be busy on June....lots of dating appoinments.....hope this will make me turned up better.
Actually i am self hating nowaday, i hate myself, a lot.....i need to off myself ...i need a nap....
I dun understand myself, why never wanna mix with people, why not socialised enough....i am so into my own world.....i need to think about it....