friend and sadness
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Again, my friends are in great trouble....
One of them is my secondary friend and another is my friend in college....if u ask me to define friend, i got no idea how to tell......but, i hold on my fate, even though i use to fight with u, or i may sometimes cruel to you, or even make you feel like being dumped...trust me....trust me....i am actually very in love to you, cos u are still, my friend.....
My secondary friend, told me that she cannot get along with 3 of her friends anymore....she said she used to be closed to them so much but after some times, maybe some gap happen among or what......her friends went far from her...not like they don talk anymore, they are still friend, but not like before anymore.....they still sit together, but in their conversation, embarrassment and insecure happened,even online, they chat among themselves and neglect her, she feels like being dumped by them.......i said.....friends need not to stick together all the time, ppl are independent, maybe they just think that you are not their kinds or what....i know i am mean to say so but......when this is the fact..you cannot change anything. "Honey, you still got me...got XXX, got XXX...we are still with you." People in one country do not share the same norm and culture, cos country can divide into states....and friends can divide to normal friend, best friend, close friend and a lot of kinds.....isn't it? "Actually you need not care about this lah, somehow ur are still together, just that their a bit close...maybe they got some secret that they dun think u need to know, so chat in MSN gua..." one of my fren consoled her in this way..hehe. a bit reluctant lah..." i said," XXX, actually what do u mind about? do they boycott u?? they don't,right?that is all lah...." i am always so mean..>__<+++...or perhaps she feels insecure....
She silent, i silent...everyone silent......i dunno what to say anymore...i am not someone who can advice ppl... but i can listen to u,Honey, i know u r sad now...but i am so far from u....distance makes me helpless.....if i were u i will stay away from them .......i will....i won think that much...hehe....just stay away....maybe u think is too extreme...but that is my way...we use to be so closed together and suddenly u all leave me alone......i will feel sad.....and i choose to go.....then, i will feel release......release from the anger and depressed that come over me all the time...hehe...
So long in my college, i know a friend that i really think and hope we can get closer and we will close to each others........we share some similarities ...we are both unhealthy and we are both sensative.....but she is far more unhealthy than me and things happen surrounding her weaken her soul....i know, u r sad and helpless....i am so sorry i can't help, but, still, i can be a good listener ..... how are u now?? have ur seniors come to you?? Are you feel better now?? Dun spoil you own health ya, i hope u can live long....i hope we can be friend forever......take care ya, huei Sze....bear in mind, u still got ur parents, u still got ur friends,...and u still got me....(If only u can read this post, u must feel touching...hehe, but this is my true confession, u need to continue ur own life....so please go on....i will be with u....)
Sherli ♥